bahbahbah.
long time didnt update.
hahaha.
wanna announced that HYDRAULIX WERE IN!!
final final final!.
WUAHAHAHHA.
bu tiam.
muz do it well.
LOL.
sighs.
today's mood not really going on well.
dont know why.
dont know what happened.
i kinda frustrating and struggling about something,
1. him
2. hydraulix
3. stupid SPM
4. money
okay. let talk about it one on one.
hahaha.
here we go.
1. HIMseriously, i dont know what happened on me and him. kinda sucks. really sucks.
i dont know how to explain. just that. he just making me on and off. the feelings are really shitty. so shit. i hate it. even saffy also asked me, 'how can you tahan him? i dont understand. you memang geng.'
seriously saffy, i also dont know how i did that. hahaha. i always tell myself. 'wei claudia, is time to take him out from my mind.' i always wanted not to text him, not to see him, not to find him, just disappear either me or him.
but, i cant do it. i just feel that texting him is like an involuntary action to me? ARGHHH.
honestly,
he's driving me crazy. yeah. he is. i dont know why.
why can't i drive people crazy but people drive me crazy?
so fan.
if i drive people crazy, maybe it willbe so much better? which i will be not that shitty and cumbersome?
i really feel like banging the wall sometimes. but i realized that it's hurts. -.-
sighsssss
what happened with me?
CLAUDIA. shit me.
sometimes i think he likes me too, but sometimes or somehow i think im just a piece of shit for him.
ROAR.
maybe i really like what jonathan said?
i want him to be mine, but not to be his.
hahahahhaha.
*i really dont feel like texting him, but i want to.
anyone understands my feelings?
by the way,
texting him is kinda hurts and confuse.
2. HYDRAULIXroarrrrrrr. hydraulix gonna rocks the school.
woohoo.
final final final.
everyone is working hard for it.
sacrificing money and time and lots of things on it.
and yeah, it didnt disappointed us at all.
everything is just doing good.
but people out there would have say alot about the final that we have to change something or create something or giving some surprise for the judges and audiences during the final.
sighs.
apparently, we are trying something on our dance just like what people kept mentioned about.
what i scare is,
when the competition and show comes,
everyone is nervous,
i scare,
i scare,
something out there will be not running that smoothly as what we did is not fully prepare.
hmmm.
but its okay.
i believe that all of us doing good and we will work it out nicely.
ALL THE BEST HYDRAULIX.
love ya all. =D
3. SPMshit. this is really so shit. most important thing right now. everyone is going for it. why i feel like i still standing there doing nothing? shit. i really dont have the urge to study. i dont know why. i feeling so dead. really so DEAD. =( arghhh. after the hydraulix thingy, i gonna force and lock myself into study mood. there's not much time though. is really time to work it out. SHIT. i see everyone study like hell. and i playing or dreaming like hell. :S
like chia ann said,
'why i feel like you not scare SPM de?'
'oh shit? i dont know :S'
may God bless me. =(
may Claudia bless me. ='(
may ALL PEOPLE bless me. =''(
may HE bless me. ='''(
4.MONEYone word, bankrupt.
two words, bye money.
three words. no more money.
four words. i dont have money.
five words. without money is kinda hard.
six words. money is really kind of important.
seven words. money works out quite a lot of things.
eight words. i think i'm kind of really need money.
nine words. hope i will be saying hi again to money.
ten words. i sacrifice money for a lot of things including you.
sighs.
people,
jiayou lah.
=)
