The One, Claudia

2009-12-12T06:53:00.000-08:00

hahahhaa. P license. here i come!
WHOOOOOOOOTS
i got my jpj exam passed yesterday!
actually i was quite sucks hhuh.
i did some big mistakes
THREE BIG MISTAKES.
ommmagawwd.
hahha. first,
i U turn, too dangerous.
i cut into another line.
the car just passed by my car. omg.
luckily didnt bang.
but i dont know why i didnt nervous that time.
i think i numb already?
hahahaha.
and the last one,
candidate in front of my car was so DAMN SLOW.
it's really really slow.
so i follow quite near back his car.
hahaa.
so yeah. these are the three mistakes of my exam.
okay. last,
here we go.

ME: how many marks i get? :D

Sir: huh? you no marks oh. you know you fail loh.

ME: *what the heck* huh.....*pity face* why i fail oh?

Sir: because you just now bla bla bla bla (explaining my mistakes)

ME: huh. really? *emo a while* but i thought you said you gave me a one last chance and i dont think i got make any mistakes again after you gave me one last chance ah.

Sir: huh. you know you was driving quite near the car just now, you know it's dangerous..

ME: huh.. really? *pity face again* im sorryy.. but please please dont let me faill. sighss..

Sir: haihz. *explain the mistakes again*

ME: okay.. i will not make it next time again.. really..

Sir: hmmm. okay lah. i give you pass lah. but really have to be safe next time. dont do it again.. :D

ME: WOOOOHOOO. thanks!!!!!!!! :D

ommaaagod.
this examiner was like so damn friendly and good lah.
hahaha
but i think my condition during jpj exam is better than qti.
ahahha
thank god :P

2009-12-09T22:43:00.000-08:00

somehow i think blogging trains one's insistence.
haha.
i admit that i dont have such insistence of blogging in myself.
dont know why.
once when i got the urge to blog.
i dont have comp to let me blog and yet my phone dont have wi-fi
else i can blog and spread my feelings in the same time when i got on something.
Spm is gonna end soon.
alot of people out there are playing and enjoying their SHORT holiday :D haha.
apparently me too.
but im staying at home right now.
kinda bored.
waiting time goes and pass
got dancing later.

yesterday i said something,
made my friend thought that i mad of him.
and i keep interpret with him last night
gah im tired of him.
he said im scary.
i really dont understand scare of what.
i didnt even angry also.
bhaaaa.
im tired of explain and explain again with him.

i feel kinda tired and fed up.
maybe is because that he ever said that to me also.
someone told me maybe im a girl that he considered as another level one?
which is not a consider as a good level?
erm. let me say it straight.
he fed up with me? he thought im kinda disturbing?
arghhh. nevermind i know and knew all this time was me.
made all this problem for me and him.

went movie with richard,welton,josie,and ann last nite.
watched new moon.
gah.. i expected it will be bored. as i watch twilight and i almost fell asleep with moses. can imagine how bored is it?
actually the storyline is quite straight forward and nothing special.
but words said by edward inspired me?
hahaha. maybe i dont really feel good yesterday.
honestly.
i dont really feel good these days.
i just kinda hide myself from my feelings and be with friends all the time.
i cried yesterday.
somehow i think i can't stand and i broke down tears.
after that i guess i felt better. :)

edward left bella,
he told her when bella finds him back,
'I have made a choice that most hurt and sad in my whole 100 years life.'

some simple words inspired me too.

I love you.
I love you too.

these 3 and 4 words means alot. :)

maybe i would have the nerve to tell you that,
I love you
:)

2009-11-16T06:44:00.000-08:00

guysssss.
haha. long time dint post blog ady.
haha
quite miss my blog.
ahaha
although no people see.:P
these few days everyone is working hard their ass out for stupid SPM.
hahaha. me either.
but still sikit lazy and curi tulang:P
now here i go bloggie again :D

SPM. wed. sejarah and bm.
bm im ok. i think.
SEJARAH YANG KILLS ME :S
damn. hahah
i drank kopi just now :D
energyyy drink for tonight.
hahaha
i want to finish it. no matter how.
listen.
NO MATTER HOW. I MUST FINISH IT BY TONIGHT.
cos tomorow reserved for my lovely bm. haha
:D
JIAYOU :D

2009-11-08T07:25:00.000-08:00

bahbahbah.
long time didnt update.
hahaha.
wanna announced that HYDRAULIX WERE IN!!
final final final!.
WUAHAHAHHA.
bu tiam.
muz do it well.
LOL.
sighs.
today's mood not really going on well.
dont know why.
dont know what happened.
i kinda frustrating and struggling about something,
1. him
2. hydraulix
3. stupid SPM
4. money

okay. let talk about it one on one.
hahaha.
here we go.

1. HIM
seriously, i dont know what happened on me and him. kinda sucks. really sucks.
i dont know how to explain. just that. he just making me on and off. the feelings are really shitty. so shit. i hate it. even saffy also asked me, 'how can you tahan him? i dont understand. you memang geng.'
seriously saffy, i also dont know how i did that. hahaha. i always tell myself. 'wei claudia, is time to take him out from my mind.' i always wanted not to text him, not to see him, not to find him, just disappear either me or him.
but, i cant do it. i just feel that texting him is like an involuntary action to me? ARGHHH.
honestly, he's driving me crazy. yeah. he is. i dont know why.
why can't i drive people crazy but people drive me crazy?
so fan.
if i drive people crazy, maybe it willbe so much better? which i will be not that shitty and cumbersome?
i really feel like banging the wall sometimes. but i realized that it's hurts. -.-
sighsssss
what happened with me?
CLAUDIA. shit me.
sometimes i think he likes me too, but sometimes or somehow i think im just a piece of shit for him.
ROAR.
maybe i really like what jonathan said?
i want him to be mine, but not to be his.
hahahahhaha.
*i really dont feel like texting him, but i want to.
anyone understands my feelings?
by the way,
texting him is kinda hurts and confuse.

2. HYDRAULIX
roarrrrrrr. hydraulix gonna rocks the school.
woohoo.
final final final.
everyone is working hard for it.
sacrificing money and time and lots of things on it.
and yeah, it didnt disappointed us at all.
everything is just doing good.
but people out there would have say alot about the final that we have to change something or create something or giving some surprise for the judges and audiences during the final.
sighs.
apparently, we are trying something on our dance just like what people kept mentioned about.
what i scare is,
when the competition and show comes,
everyone is nervous,
i scare,
i scare,
something out there will be not running that smoothly as what we did is not fully prepare.
hmmm.
but its okay.
i believe that all of us doing good and we will work it out nicely.
ALL THE BEST HYDRAULIX.
love ya all. =D

3. SPM
shit. this is really so shit. most important thing right now. everyone is going for it. why i feel like i still standing there doing nothing? shit. i really dont have the urge to study. i dont know why. i feeling so dead. really so DEAD. =( arghhh. after the hydraulix thingy, i gonna force and lock myself into study mood. there's not much time though. is really time to work it out. SHIT. i see everyone study like hell. and i playing or dreaming like hell. :S
like chia ann said,
'why i feel like you not scare SPM de?'
'oh shit? i dont know :S'
may God bless me. =(
may Claudia bless me. ='(
may ALL PEOPLE bless me. =''(
may HE bless me. ='''(

4.MONEY
one word, bankrupt.
two words, bye money.
three words. no more money.
four words. i dont have money.
five words. without money is kinda hard.
six words. money is really kind of important.
seven words. money works out quite a lot of things.
eight words. i think i'm kind of really need money.
nine words. hope i will be saying hi again to money.
ten words. i sacrifice money for a lot of things including you.

sighs.
people,
jiayou lah.
=)

2009-11-02T07:08:00.000-08:00

hey hey
haha.
long time i dint post anything here.
hmmm.
dont know why feeling like lazy lately.

DANG
tshung tsin star SOON
exam soon
sports meet soon
leaving soon?
new bf soon?
marry soon?
........... soon?
no idea. :S

sighs.
i dont know what am i towards him now.
i dont know what he is towards me now.
no idea.
dont feel like got any idea of it.
maybe stay still like that is better?
hahahhaha.
at least i can get something from him every weeks?
so I should be satisfy of it?

I will appreciate everything.
even though,
you're not mine.
=)

teeeeheeeee ♥

PLEASE STUDYYYYY CLAUDIAAAA WONGGGG FUIII YUNNNN
people.
please text me or call me
to ask me study. :S
thanks ♥ =)
damn

2009-10-29T06:29:00.000-07:00

但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？

也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。

也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。
男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。
一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心他，总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。
做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情
最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，

如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好.

希望你们能珍惜身边的人，可能在这一刻你们不觉得他/她是你生命中最重要的人... 一旦他/她

已离你身边而去时，才发觉... 一切都太迟了....

2009-10-28T08:23:00.001-07:00

okayy.
enough is enough.
=(

2009-10-28T07:01:00.000-07:00

i don't know what am i thinking.
im just screwing myself.
i hate myself.
i just got myself out from another then i got myself into the another which doesnt seems any better than the first one?
sucks ha?
why can't i just find a good and stable one?
not i cant find.
maybe it still not appear around me yet?
or maybe i didnt notice about it?
or maybe he's just not mine too.
arghh..
is she that good?

hahaha.
i dont want compare myself to her but i still keep doing that.
damn.
what happen to me.
wake up claudia!!
WAKE UPPPPPPPPPPP.
PLEASEEEEEEE.

why can't you just fall for me easily?
i hate that i love you so...
=(

2009-10-25T06:36:00.000-07:00

feelings are slowly fade.

distance is getting faraway.

my sight on you is getting blur.

somehow.

don't know why.

i think and i know you're not mine.

and don't mean to be mine.

i still,

still,

waiting?

for nothing?

for something?

for anything?

DON'T

KNOW.

2009-10-24T08:19:00.001-07:00

it's okayyy.
i have faith in you. :)

2009-10-24T06:58:00.000-07:00

my past tense,
i think i can understand and know how you felt last year.
it's sad and hurt.
waiting the one you like/love to tell you whether he/she really likes/loves you or not.
and wanting to know the position of yourself in his/her heart.
can you feel the pain of it?
you loving/liking the person that you dont know whether you should love/like him or not.
sometimes he/she gives you hope,
sometimes he/she makes you dissapointed.
arghhh.
friends telling me not to involve into it.
but im giving myself a chance to try it.
it may be hurt,
it may got a happy ending,
it may be nothing happen.

INCONSISTENT.
seriously,
i hate this.
im sorry to say that.

i know,
make a choice between two it's hard.
i have been through this situation before.
i can do that,
just why you cant?
thats why,
i said,
the other one is actually more important for you.
i can feel that.

people,
dont worry.
im strong. =)
i feel blue todayyy ♥♥♥♥

hahahaha.
premenstrual syndrome.

2009-10-23T07:16:00.000-07:00

AAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHH
=(

today,
my first lesson of driving.
errr..
kinda driving me crazyyyy.
it's the first time mah.
what you expect from me oh uncle!?!?
if i know how to drive, what for i find you to teach me.
sorryyy lo if im sucks.
hmmphhh!
i will do it better next time.
i will practice. (perhaps)
kinda hate driving now.
i mean learn.
arghh.
so DRIVERS, BE READY :D

Luckily you came to find me today,
and made me happier. =)
and of course sayang me.
hahahaha.
hope can get that from you everydayyy.

and i got a nightmare last night,
that my first day of learn driving,
i got crash my car and thunderstorm outside
OMG :S
anyway its over,
and there's no crashing and thunderstorm.
WUAHAHAHA.

i need you.

2009-10-22T06:48:00.000-07:00

boy,
if i said i love you,
how would you feel?

2009-10-21T21:44:00.000-07:00

define : 安全感 - a sense of security

haha.

I think many guys will wonder what is 安全感 that always mentioned by almost EVERY girls.

haha.

for me the so called '安全感' is kinda a feeling for girl from the man.

erm.

a SENSE of security.

actually it doesn't need to be happen when there's something happened or what.

it may happen from a kiss? hug? or even words that said by someone whom important for you.

honestly,

i felt that last night.

it was so warm.

hahaha.

i bet everyone loves the feeling of it.

just a simple touching or whatever can make you feel like flying.

WUAHAHAHAHA.

boy,

i feel secure when i'm with you.

安全感 ♥

how sweettt :)

love you all ♥ ♥ ♥

happy :D

2009-10-21T08:10:00.000-07:00

people,
I'm happy today too.
I wish and hope my life can be that happy everyday.
or even happier.
=)

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

HAHAHAHAHAHA

a happy day with you

2009-10-20T22:57:00.000-07:00

sorry guys for not posting any new stuffs because exam just finished. haha.

I'm happy yesterday.

really happy.

i didnt feel that happy since after july.

honestly.

i wish to have you but i scare to have you.

not because i scare you will leave me.

anyway,

as a girl, i think i can't accept a guy that has two girls in him.

i think mostly every girl does too.

nevermind.

just let it be.

i will appreaciate every moment with you.

hahaha.

hey people.

all the best.

do love you life and enjoy every second of it.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

i heart you?

爱？

2009-10-08T08:18:00.000-07:00

你真的觉得他就是唯一吗？

全球共有几百亿人，

难道一定是他吗？

你知道什么是爱吗？

人们常说，

被爱是最幸福的

但我却认为甜美幸福的背后是残忍的。

朋友，好好去爱一个人吧！

往往你所得到的会比被爱更幸福！=）

请享受爱人。♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

该来的就来，

该去的就让它去吧！

Don't know why i wrote this during the exam today :S

All the best peeps :D